Saturday, December 5, 2015

How will I let you go..

As we said goodbye, you stroked my face tenderly and asked "how will I let you go?".  We were both overcome with emotion, knowing that I could not stay.  I was from the U.S. and unless I could get a work permit I would not be able to remain in the country.  It had been a fantastic year, meeting and falling in love in a way that I never imagined, especially in my 50s. 

Now, fast forward 10 years and all of the emotion of that time welling up inside of me as I get ready to see you again.  Would I feel the same, would there be any connection at all... so many questions until I saw you.  Waving at me from across the lobby, it was as if no time had passed.  With the same sweet smile, you stood and put your arms around me and I felt that I was home again.
I didn't realize it at the time but you were saying goodbye, you had given up on any possibility of a future together and now it was over.

After loving you all of these years, I have to ask "how will I let you go?".  All I know is that I must.  It is time for this chapter to end and another to begin.  What we did have was perfect and beautiful and can't be tarnished by time or reality but now it's time for something new.  Love that is fresh and alive with optimism for the future.  I'm not ready to give up on what we began but I can't have it with you.  What I learned from you was that great love comes when you least expect it but you must be open in order to have it.  Thank you so much for the lovely lesson and setting me free to love again.

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