Monday, June 30, 2014

Memories of Mom

The heavy cloud of grief has passed and now I can look back and remember all the wonderful things about my mother that the pain of losing her made me forget.  I'm not sure how many people knew her truly funny and quirky side.  She had such a serious and difficult life that it must have been very hard for her to relax and let her true self shine.  When she did it was a joy to behold and now that is the woman I remember.

She loved Science Fiction, watching Star Trek (the series) every week is one of my fondest family memories.   Then there were the Saturday night movies on our old black and white television.  Watching "The Day the Earth Stood Still" and "War of the Worlds" was a special treat with popcorn and a bag of miniature powdered donuts!

She could be so funny and irreverent, I always thought that was the Irish side coming out.  She wasn't the sappy, sentimental type but she had so much love and passion.  You could see it every time she was near her grandchildren - she loved them more than anything in the world.

22 years on, I miss her more than I can say but now I can smile because I will always have my memories of mom.....

Sunday, June 29, 2014

Something Wonderful

I have always been an optimist - even when, and sometimes especially when, things were painful or difficult.  I always believed that everything happened for a reason and that one day I would have a wonderful life and live happily ever after.  It might seem like a fairy tale but it was just what a sad and frightened young girl had to believe to survive. 

For many years, I kept a little note in my wallet that said "Something wonderful is about to happen".  Not only was it a great reminder for me to focus on the positive but I truly believed it. My entire life has been an incredible transformation - year by year, event by event so I knew anything was possible. 

This week as I emptied out my wallet, once again I opened that precious little scrap of paper.  This time something was different - a shift has occurred, I felt a surge of energy wash over me that was pure joy.  Quickly I grabbed a pen and crossed off the old message and in it's place wrote "Something wonderful has already happened"!

B's Birthday

I remember exactly where I was and what I was doing 4 years ago when my grandson was born.  Looking at him for the very first time I felt overwhelmed with love and gratitude for this precious life.  It was so exciting but what I did not realize was that in that instant my life would be forever changed.  Now with each passing year, as that little boy grows so does my heart!

Friday, June 27, 2014

Learning the Laws of the Universe

Learning about the Law of Attraction has been a very interesting journey for me.  Over the past few years I have come to understand that we attract everything that comes into our lives.  In an attraction based universe we get back whatever we put out there.  I have always believed in the philosophy that you reap what you sow and have tried to live by the golden rule and treat others as I want to be treated. 

What is very significant and new for me is the concept of intentionally projecting my thoughts in a way that I can see the results in my life.   Whether it is the job that I want, the house I want to buy or the relationship I want to have - I can truly have it all.  The really interesting part is that I don't have to really have any of it to have the joy of it.  The more pleasure I have in thinking about it the more it comes true.

Just this week, I thought how nice it would be to buy a larger house with a great porch and backyard for my to grandchildren to play in.  I remembered the house we lived in when I was a girl and how much I loved playing in the yard.  We even had an old concrete incinerator that we would light up on summer nights so we could stay out later. 

Very nice thoughts and memories but I didn't expect anything to come of it.  Then I went to visit my daughter and saw the house next door was for sale.  It was a beautiful ranch style home with a gorgeous covered patio, nicely manicured garden and big backyard, there even was an old incinerator in the back!  I just smiled realizing that this was exactly what I had been daydreaming about.  The house is already under contract so I won't be buying this particular house but it felt so wonderful to see it manifest before my very eyes and know that I can have the joy of anything just by feeling it in my heart.

Sunday, June 22, 2014

The Secret of Life

I was reminded again this week what James Taylor sang so beautifully "the secret of life is enjoying the passage of time". 

Just when I feel overwhelmed with stress and anxiety I have a wonderful day with my 2 precious grandchildren.  They fill my heart with so much love and joy that everything else melts away and I remember how beautiful the passage of time can really be.