Many years ago I heard Abraham-Hicks say "you can never be less than what you have become". It resonated deeply with me when I heard it, but I did not fully realize what it meant until I tried to do something that was no longer right for me.
I have been very fortunate to have had a wonderful career, something I just happened upon and it evolved into what I would do for the next 20 years. I have been toying with the idea of retirement and recently moved to Florida to explore the possibilities and really fell in love with it.
Enjoying those peaceful mornings having coffee on my lanai, watching the gorgeous sunsets or walking to the farmer's market in town have been more than enough to keep me occupied these past few months. I often wondered when did I have time for a full-time job?
I'm still not sure what my motivation was but when I was offered a new contract assignment I accepted the job. Not only did I have to go back to work, but I had to fly 2,000 miles away to do it. Living in hotels, spending endless hours at airports and on crowded planes is no way to live.
I suppose I thought that if I was happy where I was living and just worked on a short-term basis I would be ok until I fully retired - I was wrong. In a very short amount of time it became clear to me that I could no longer do this. I was not eating or sleeping properly and my health was already beginning to suffer.
What I've learned from this experience is that you can not go back. As your life changes and grows you must keep moving forward. Always on to the next thing, expanding and increasing in order to be who you are meant to become.