It is very strange to miss someone you never knew. My father was absent throughout my life and I always wondered how different things would be if he had been here.
Mom told me stories of how he would carry me on a pillow saying I was more precious than gold and yet he didn't stay to love or protect me.
I have spent my entire life learning to take care of myself and my family. With all my heart, I am so very grateful to have the life my father could not provide.