Always with me

It has been 21 years since my dear mother passed away.  For many years I felt the extreme loss of not having her here.  What I didn't realize is that she never went away.

Her vibrant, glorious spirit lives on - in the smiles of my precious grandchildren or the gorgeous roses that bloom.  She sends messages like a beautiful spring robin or two shiny new pennies to let me know she is near.

Every day in every way I see and feel her and know she is always with me. 

Attitude of Abundance

For many years now, it has been my conscious intent to change my thoughts from scarcity to abundance.  This was no small feat considering most of my life had been about what we did not have and very little of what we did.  Growing up my family was very poor and I was keenly aware of the struggles my mother went through just to make sure that we had food to eat and a clean place to live.

While raising my own children, I began to understand that poverty was more of a mindset than a situation and tried in small ways to at least create the illusion that we had more than we did.  Little by little our circumstances began to change; I could plan for special events or occasions and trusted that somehow it would work out.  I didn’t understand that I was creating it by how I was thinking but now I know it truly is about having an attitude of abundance that will bring it into your life.   

Dreaming my life

I have come to understand and appreciate the true value of dreaming.  Anytime, night or day, it takes me to a new place and makes everything seem possible.  It feels like traveling in my mind to create the experience I want to have.    

Just like planning for a trip I have to be specific about what I want on this journey.  Where do I want to go, what new and exciting experiences will I have?  Asking myself those questions help fuel my imagination until I can see and feel myself in that place.

Now I know, without a doubt, that everything I dream of is not only possible but that it will come true.  Exactly how and when it will show up in my life is unknown but that is also up to me.  The more open and receptive I am to what I have asked for the quicker it comes.  Not always in the way I expected but better than I could have ever imagined.  So all I have to do is keep dreaming….      

Lack Drives the Desire

Whatever we feel is missing from our life generates the wish to achieve it.  Once we begin to focus on what we want and not the absence of it we begin to draw the energy to create it.   Letting our emotions guide us, we know if we are moving toward or away from what we want most. 

We must learn to appreciate the lack that drives the desire within us that summons the energy to create everything our heart yearns for.

Waking Spirit

My life is taking on a new shape now - just like the tulips that lay sleeping through winter and now are waking and reaching for the sun, so is my spirit.

Lose Control - Gain Balance

I have spent an enormous amount of time and energy trying to be in control - of myself, my life and even those around me.  I was taught that it’s what I needed to do to get along in the world.  Now, it is very clear to me that I need to release control in order to find my true equilibrium. 

It is thrilling and frightening all at the same time but I know when I lose control I will gain my balance and find the true meaning of my life.

Blessed

When I look back on my life the only word that comes close to describing it is blessed.  I am in awe of the beautiful and perfect unfolding that is my life.  I have children and grandchildren that fill my heart with pure joy and experiences that make me feel happy and fulfilled in ways that I never imagined. 

This journey has been better than anything I could possibly have planned and I am so very grateful to be so blessed!